It's my life and I can Love it if I want to!..(and I do!)

Okay, here it is...this photo tells it all..MY LIFE!

You see it? Yup I'm wearing two different socks and not only two different ones..but different color too! I didn't do it for this photo..I seriously did it at 3am after nursing Devan to sleep. My feet were cold and I didn't care what I grabbed in my sock drawer. The point is, everyday is like this. I have no clue what my day will bring. I kept them on all day not realizing they were different. On a week day, I don't get a chance to figure out what I'm going to wear or see myself in the mirror. I know, all you 'moms' out there are nodding your head understanding exactly what I'm going through. I get it..I know I'm not alone. However, I need this blog to journal my thoughts to keep my sanity checked.

From picking up the toys 5x a day all through the house, refilling a sippy cup, following a crawler, making sure my 3 year old is not in danger to himself and to his lil' bro, holding the remote to click on Demand, feeding the kids, washing hands, nursing Devan, playing on the floor with my kiddos, adjusting my messy ponytail that I slept in, cleaning up spit up, writing down my 'to do list', finally get to go to the bathroom with door open, teaching Dante to say sorry after hurting me, holding Devan as I clean around the house, putting Devan in the crib as I clean around the house, checking email or facebook for a minute or two, remembering to drink fluids, Hearing "mommy!" all day long, spacing out, make a cup of coffee, play tickle war, making sure I don't say "No" too much and teaching "Do this" instead, making silly faces at Devan, making sure my potty trained toddler is still potty trained, changing another diaper, constantly checking Devan he doesn't put small objects in his mouth, reading a book to the kids, acting excited about everything that the kids are excited about, wondering when I'll take a shower, sniffing myself..(do I stink yet?), hearing the boys cry cause it's nap time, read another book, walk quietly until I know the boys are really asleep, sit on the couch for a little bit and watch one DVR show I recorded and to think about what I need to do before the boys wake up. Did you get all that? It's only 2pm and I finally get to take a deep breath and refocus to start it up again when they wake up. I may have not mention...wait. I mean, I KNOW I didn't mention everything I do everyday...but you get the idea how my life is these days. Right?

I still didn't take a shower..I may be able to while they nap, but I often take a mini break and think of cleaning bigger things so I have no interruptions. I also try to give myself time to go online to look up jobs, facebook and blogging. Once they wake up..it's all the same stuff to do all over again and then some! You want me to blog about night time? Uhh, that's whole different story. When I have time to blog about my wild 'night life' I will let you know. Wild..not! Busy..yes!

So my life is hectic and a blessing too! As I stand here (nope not sitting down) typing this out I know how blessed I am each day. I may be crying, irritated or laughing and playing but this is my life and I can LOVE it if I want to..I do! Also, I thank my family/friends and 'moms clubs' for helping me feel like i'm not alone. Thank you for the support!

See what I mean? I am so blessed!

playing footsies

Devan and his balloon

Just a simple video of a playful baby and his balloon.

Baby Hats

Okay, who figures out the sizes in baby heads? Especially the hats that come with the clothes. I mean come on? They never fit my boys. I know my boys may have a little bit larger head then some boys, but nothing outrageous ya know? I love this outfit that Devan is wearing in this picture and I am laughing at the beanie hat that came with it. Enjoy!

Devan John 34 weeks

Devan's walker

Devan 8 months

Happy 8 Months to Devan..and a little bit about Dante too!

Achievements:

Devan is 8 months weighing at 18.5 lb with 4 teeth (two on bottom and two on top). He crawls everywhere now with me walking right behind him. Let me tell you how proud he is to strut his crawl. He slaps his hands down on the wood floor and lets out a giggle or two as he goes room to room. Unfortunately, his toenails are scuffed up from it. He loves to stand up by pulling himself up and even taking side steps to reach the end of a table or the couch. Yes, I think he'll be a early walker just like his Bro, Dante.

Expressing:

He makes lots of different sounds and baby talk. He says Mama with his sweet voice. He likes to show his excitement with a loud short grunt. He crinkles his nose and eyes and shows his upper teeth when he wants to fake cry or whine about something. He likes to do a silly face when he breathes in & out of his nose. My favorite right now is if someone comes up to him with a soft voice and greets him, he will act bashful and have a semi-smile while he tilts his head down. It's super cute you should try it!

Feeding time:

He doesn't turn down any types of food. Peas to Chicken and applesauce..He loves it all! His favorite now is sharing a banana with mommy. I love to give him a smash nibble of bananas! I usually have two spoons with me when I'm feeding him. One for him to hold to keep him busy or else he will steal mine and get food all over him, and the 2nd spoon is for me to feed him. I do sign language with him so he knows when I'm feeding him and when I'm done feeding him. I think he understands some of it..it's kinda fun to communicate with him that way :)

Dislikes:

sleeping through the night (yes he still doesn't. ugh!)

staying still while changing his diaper or clothes

toys taken away from him

high chairs..especially the table tops

singing him to sleep

Brother time:

Dante is really getting attached to Devan now. He loves to hold him and kiss him. He is always telling us how much he loves his brother. It's the sweetest joy to having children. Dante is great at sharing his toys and no questions asked unless it's 'dangerous' for Devan to play with. He loves to help with feeding time and bathing time. I tried to have him help with changing diapers but he doesn't want to go near that. It's always "ewwwww!" haha.

One time, Devan fell back on his head from a sitting position and Dante heard Devan crying. I look over and Dante is crying and telling me, "please mommy pick him up". I immediately wanted to cry with them. I explained to Dante that Devan is okay and thank you for wanting to protect your brother. Again, so sweet to having children.

There are moments that Dante wants to test his limits with Devan. He has jumped over Devan, held on to him and not letting go, let Devan suck his toe (yuck haha), and accidentally poke his eye. All in all though He is a very good big brother.

Parent time:

Dantes has shared with me how much he loves his boys. He loves to teach Dante Spanish and now sign language. He loves playing with him..I mean come on doesn't all husband's like to be a kid still? haha. With Devan, he loves when he does the bashful look and when he can actually rock him to sleep.

For me, I have been off of work for almost 2 months now and I have been enjoying every minute of it. It's been a blessing to have this time even if it wasn't planned on our part. I feel scheduling has improved and Dante's temperament has been better..you know with the whole "terrible three's". Yikes! I love that I can take both my boys out to the park and enjoy Dante making new friends and Devan watching with his curious eyes.

Happy 8 months, Devan!

Thank you God for letting me be a mom of two. xoxo